Love, Love I am bleeding from a gash I’ve carried far too long It seems with time the pain should be receding conceding the point I thought we were fighting for. We’re fighting for nothing and no one will win. Theres too much pain and pride can be deceiving. I’ve just learned how to cry. I’ve had a change of mind. Lover, Dreamer Writer, Poet Shaker, Mover Pseudo Know it Short Fuses New Tattoos mark a way to pass the hours Supernatural Muse meant power

GREEN EYED MONSTER! The lyre summons demons who will whisper in your dreams They feed upon your screams rejoice when you cant breathe Take in what you cant see while you’re out seeking your xi Made a believer out of me A disguise that caught me by surprise A lie allowed not forgotten A noose above the heads of those who's hearts had simple gotten Left behind still ahead of the trend But the hunger calls for more when the music makes sense Whats the pattern we are seeking Watch the mood, it depends. None would say that you are scary None would say you’re terrifying But in your eyes there lies a monster and he whispers ugly secrets He will tell you you're imperfect He might say that you are lacking But my heart, it knows much better Yes Ive learned you that much better Now, Im not saying that I'm the wisest But I have a small idea if we could put aside our weakness If we could put aside our fears If we could stand up in our power
Rise as one in our new strength Then we could motivate the masses that Loves not just a game to play I love you like I’m getting paid to Hunny can't you see the pain the shame at losing emeralds ruby, diamonds, you are golden Shining Shimmering Like that gleam in your eyes (Green eyed monster) I growl at the heathens I am not judgmental, I'm just stuck inside my grievance A death shut me down from mortal ventures Rebellion from pleasure now Craving blood I know this might take some desperate measures must eliminate snow Eliminate curtain current moments seem scary but that past was darkly certain hurting beyond repair the glare just sticks with me fairly, you stiffed me Barely, Im lifting I care, but I'm shifting Now I have taken crying lessons And I have shared what my heart says Still I think about you all day its clear my love just wants to stay Though Ive forgotten what you look like am I just living in denial but I still smell lavender kisses I still Imagine how you smile I cant help but think about him Though I've never seen his face though I've never heard his name seems like someones took my place Now when I look into the mirror And see green eyes under beret I miss the love I sought to save Loves not just a game to play I love you like I’m getting paid to Hunny can't you see the pain the shame at losing emeralds ruby, diamonds, you are golden perfect, and i miss you Sincerely , your man Tiptoe up the steps out to the balcony where I see some shadows down below sneaking out into dark alleys A glint below I think belongs to eyes I used to gaze into, I phase into A memory Id blocked because the shame is too much for the moment Stolen from the times where pain was our biggest component I own it , Ive blown it I glance down one more time before I turn into a stone (shit)

Bear Witness I sit and witness 
is this you Is it me And as the rain falls wet walls crumble crumble My Lord Has it ended Given that time was suspended Given what space apprehended Given the way that I feel It seems we’re stuck here in a wheel And the wheel keeps moving forward But we keep feeling cornered And its toruture Drawn and quartered Boarders without Board Bored with Monotony He She can't describe us Cause we both say 
Its not me Lots free But its crowded
Clouded with their baggage They keep moving on Their spots filled with our new song \ Grits and gravy Lifes not perfect baby But at least the pain is wavering I get it I lied Im a piece of scum But Im trying Im tired But I wrote this Feel Helpless Feel Hopeless Feel like growing Greatness If its its over Save this Behave its the Best Shot Caught what the test wrought Fought missed the best part Start back at the fresh start My God what a blessed carp Part in time or emotions The new life following motions My devotions going no where Ive written how much I care And I stare cause its too fair

Im confused Identity ’s’defined by me So who's the king Whos the queen whos in charge and whats this charge that barged in while I was 
Sweet Sweet Sleeping God only knows Whos that weeping The best in show and it shows Ooo Wee
Ooo Wee
 Who could know it hurts so bad No one All I know is that Id rather take the bullet than run Who could see this as the end Not Me I just see this as the start of something new and free 
Im upset Dont understand why you get mad and you shut down but Im your man Am I your man or are you mine I wrote it all quote the fall my fault this Sweet Sweet sleeping Broke my dreams in half My bad Whos that peeping My mirrored path and my wrath Ooo wee Ooo wee Ooo wee I am the king

mmm mmm X 3 I know that its all just a matter of time
’Til I ain’t got a dime 
As a matter of fact
I know that its all just a matter of opinion
What Im feeling cant be
Compromised What Im feeling cant be
Compromised

I know that its all just in my head
This feeling of dread and indecision 
I know that its all just a matter of love 
Whats the matter with love Once Again I know that its all just in my head
This feeling of dread and indecision 
I know that its all just a matter of love
 Whats the matter with love 
That feeling cant be compromised
Love cant be Compromised
 what I feel to say someones always wrong what I feel to do is Just let you know that What life I have What mistakes Ive made doesn't change the truth the truth is I love you You stepped through the storm lover Ive been week not wrong lover So we have have this song others envy this I can hold my head high head high you can trust in my eyes my eyes I can take a step away we write the new play

Feeling This Feeling Understanding It could be so terrifying I knew it From the start So who's to blame for my broken heart My god its gotten cold out let the ghosts out from the closet but Im still standing Getting stronger Instead of fear I just love song her My face could melt way from the pressure from the pressure Theres no time love could measure love could measure My god its gotten cold out let the ghosts out from the closet but Im still standing Getting stronger Instead of fear I just love song her This Feeling Understanding It could be so terrifying I knew it From the start So who's to blame for my broken heart If I could watch all my assumptions Judgements an ordinary lot I would much rather sit upon the moonlit cove Much preferred than lost in lonely coast

Love My dreams have a habit of appearing when I awake Ive had the same one for ten years and Ive yet to realize its not fake Id like to say it was a dream about emotions A dream about judgements And preconceived notions Or war Or hate But instead The hardest dream of all, 
Love, sits on my plate She looks in my eyes Deceptive but wise Hurt but still strong and a muse for this song
I missed her the last time and the one before that And the one before that And the one before that she was a soldier Who took on mighty arms, No one could hold her I was the same as now Stubborn and headstrong And my music had called her 
and she came along And while she took it all in A knife in the back And she passed from this world as her body went slack The time before that she was a writer Who could woo all the masses Her words could transform from honey to molasses From gold into lead From cotton to sugar She was the best Guess who knew her Yes just I The same as right now Foolhardy Spontaneous, Stubborn, and Proud She heard my voice from afar Sad and wailing Misunderstood and demanding And she sat and she listened and wrote one word on the paper Then she vanished from sight and I searched for my savior The one word held no consequence to anyone but me And as I read it again and again and again I believed She was talking about me and that seemed far fetched The word on the sheet was just simply Blessed This time around I caught her and lost her She searches for me though I sit right beside her And while Im still the same guilty ashamed beholden to pain makes me sit out in vain She's only gotten better A little hurt cause Im lost and A little worn from and a little worn from the cost A little tired and timid She believes in the me and the now that we live in I start to understand since she wont let me go I dont want to go anywhere I just want to find home I want her there beside me I want to lie down to dream, and my dreams aren't just inside me I want to be strong and be brave and be proud That the woman Ive found 
That Ive written and fought for Is real and Im smitten and Its brought more of me out Freed now I see the new meaning now I see the new story I see the new part Im excited and It hurts But I live for the heart

Is he a soldier 
Sodered pain upon his heart
Just a loving filigree Agree that this is just a part He’s got a gun-Pon his shoulder
Loaded with the never ending
Never-ending story ends
Cause this is just the start

Is he an addict he emphatically constricts the feeling
Mad and he depicts the squealing
Sad and he repicks the one he never thought he'd loose
Nevers just a word
But conflicted he just broods
So lost in his old mood Its just a part that he feels
Apart from the feeling
He's just a part of the whole
One understanding
There cant be two of you
Who’s looking back at you Its just a part that he feels
Apart from the feeling
He's just a part of the whole
One understanding
There cant be two of you
Who’s looking back at you On this stationary Ive received from the services I offered To my country and self I write for Oshun’s health I admit Ive run from destiny 
As my path was ever changing Ive been avoiding all the winds 
Ive close my eyes to what Im painting and now Im fainting in the face of danger The unknown haunts my dreams and 
Im no stranger when this realms fabric rips at the seams And a beam from the void And a great love supreme And a scene from the past Though it seems like a dream Theres a boy with a drum What grin hints of mischief She's intrigued by the man deep inside no resistance To the distance of the king deified Hes a great king now though he once was alive What a shame that he died (Its alright, storms alive) 

Is he a coward
Lost in fear he lies about the past
In now he's different than the last
and he's loosing her so fast
Much faster than he knows
Mastered fear regains the truth
The pastor couldn't show The soldier chose to grow Is he a coward
Lost in fear he lies about the past
In now he's different than the last
and he's loosing her so fast
Much faster than he knows
Mastered fear regains the truth
The pastor couldn't show The soldier chose to grow

Its just a part that he feels
Apart from the feeling
He's just a part of the whole
One understanding
There cant be two of you
Who’s looking back at you

It’s what my heart says
 I don't dare believe it when my head speaks What the hell is happening 
my feet quake
 my heart aches
 My soul glows Overflows 
Now my words lack 
Just what I am saying
 while Im praying 
Face first inthe shower
 and I’ll glower
 I stu-stutter Im still here with my fear

Theres no seat open up on the balcony floor You'll have to go down there Down where you can see much more It might not be comfortable But the view you get is true Here in the depths Just wait and see what are we fighting for I took a train under the sea to find what I'm longing for what Im waiting for Is it you or is it me Up on the rooftop where its too hot 
I can see the past And out from the backside Theres a black lie what the future cast Excuse me Am I moving to fast Can it last if the joys looking down Can it stand if the past holds the crown Can it live if we decide we’re not alive We’re not alive We are the life